The First Day

Let's be honest. This is not my first day. I've had plenty of first days. Days where I said I'll start on Monday. Days where I said I'll start tomorrow. Days where I felt depressed or discouraged. Days where I gave up because that's all I knew how to do. No, that's not true. I gave up because that's all I wanted to do. Like so many days before I got up this morning with the best of intentions - a new determination. Today I'll stay on program. Today I'll start losing weight again. But that's not what happened. The stress came and then the focus on food took over. I could've had a salad for lunch, but I had a hamburger. Not just a hamburger - but a prime rib cheeseburger. So I start over again when I get home. I made spaghetti with wheat pasta. Not bad - until I dipped in for the 2nd helping and had the 3rd piece of garlic bread.

I've talked about starting this blog time and time again, but never did it. The lazy beast maybe - but more likely the desire to continue hiding. This blog means a level of accountability. I need to be held accountable. I need to hold myself accountable.

Today is about the steps I need to take. Accountability. Committment. Determination. I am accountable. I am responsible for all 282.6 pounds that is me.

My goals for this week:
Do what I've committed to do - walk in the Walk for the Cure on Sunday.
Be accountable - track my food daily and my weight weekly accurately.
Find determination - be the person I want to be and do what it takes to get there.

Today is the first day, not tomorrow.